Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah urusan hamba-Mu ini, amin.
Started the day on January by filling my already-neatly-wrapped planner with extra classes and clinics. and my oh my, it's full. Everyday got ma. ----
Now I start to wonder why no matter how busy we are, we still can't top off the list wen the results are out. I don't think it's only a matter of how many extra classes la, I think the students are one of the reasons too. Since, majority of us are from rural areas, hm. Like what abang raja said? faktor genetik? Ha yeah whatever. Bandar people are way more capable of doing stuffs compared to kampung people. No offence, but that's a fact. Tapi still, that doesn't mean kampung people are teruk tau. If u notice, ramai yang mengharumkan negara are from kampung. maybe that's just basically their usaha and the urge of wnating to change their family, who know? k da lari topic. What I'm trying to say here, sekolah sekolah yang top tu semua they choose they're pelajar carefully. yang lebihan baru masuk MRSM. No wonder la. So then in upper form, depa masuk MRSM, that's why kita dekat atas. ok tu je. Ha ha.
Back to the planner. As the Academic Bereau, I think it's also my job to ensure the students academic progress is, well, good. But basically I know we have teachers to do that but I feel that it's on my shoulders, too. Ya know? But I know. My results are not as good either. But i'm trying my best la. I got number 1 once, and alhamdulillah, that helped me to become who I am now. But I wanna get it again, to inspire people, like how other people inspired me on getting it. Haa. But I can't lie la, the spint of pride is still there. Riya'. How to buang la?
Being one of the SRC members ain't easy. Can't lie. If we would make a 'perumpamaan' I'd say burgers. No, a burger. An already basi burger. I believe that we're just an experiment. We're tested on 20, to see our progress. and it ain't good. Only sekerat je yang buat kerja. and next time, they should test first la. Don't take coward ones la. Coward leaders. Too scared to be hated. Too scared to loose friends. I know being a leader is like, a wise thing. U need to be respected, not be afraid of. I know that. But since I can't get respect from them, I'd rather loose my friends, scolding them everyday because I know I'm doing the right thing. I never thought, you would backstab me guys. I know i'm not like who I was before, but there's nothing u can do. This is what I promised. This is what u promised too, but then somehow u broke it. I'm sorry i'm not that good pun, but at least I try. and I can't wait to letak jawatan and hope that u guys would come back. Ya Allah, how DO you gain respect? Kau tunjukkanlah aku hidayah-Mu Ya Allah. Amin.
Withing this fuss, slowly my results that was almost reaching the peaks of the mountains, dropped to the ground. Bam. and all I can do is to never give up. Doa. Usaha. Ikhtiar. Tawakkal. Insyaallah. Don't take all these an alasan for you to not have tome to study, anna. If Kak Sarah can do it, why can't you? Buanglah sifat malas tu anna. Ok I just heard someone knock at the door. That was scary. K nvm.
Alhamdulillah, after all that hard work, and non-stop training, I participated in the Kejohanan Merentas Desa Peringkat Negeri Perak after getting 8th place masa daerah. I know it's nothing to be proud of, I mean, come on. number 8 anna? sheesh. But still. It's enough for me. And yes, I got number 45 out of 80 something, which is the second in daerah whaat? Okay lah tu setakat nak gain experience. (:. Cikgu adi was fine with it. Hey, I didn't stop tau. I kept on running and running without turning back. It was tough though. But I made it. Then a few months after that, I get to wakil maktab to go for the Kejohanan Olahraga Peringkat Daerah Hulu Perak. Only masuk 1 acara je, though. Kinda terasa la. I think cg adi only chose me because he was kesian. Who knows? I'm not that good pun. Tapi sokay, that was also for pengalaman. Hm, speaking of pengalaman. I never now how it feels like to be the first in something, How it feels like, to be the first, to reach the line. Like Iman and Syawal. How does it feel like?
As what somebody told me---- my god this is a long post. I'm gonna rest lah first.
But before that, always remember. Someone told me that, with the right passion and semangatness, you can do whatever you want, nobody can stop you, as long as god wills it (:
Assalamualaikum.
P/S, later lah letak gambar. malas gila.
